Sweetest dream, scariest nightmare.

5th feb.

2012-02-05T22:59:00.001+08:00

My picture for today, my primary school!

GRIFFITHS PRIMARY SCHOOL.
VIA FISH EYE.

K DONE. im lazy today. Mwah.

Lotsa love,
Nourhedaia.

Mwah.

4th feb

2012-02-04T23:44:00.001+08:00

My 4th picture for february series.

Just a short post. Im sleepy.

Haunted looking smoking corner at ming arcade cash studio. Had fun with the girl. Love you babygirls. Mwah.

Lotsa love,
Nourhedaia.

Mwah.

3rd picture of february series.

2012-02-04T00:49:00.001+08:00

I was busy tumblring. Sorry. So yeah. Here is my clouds.

You could either see a sad face or fierce looking face.

So let the picture do th talking.

Lotsa love and clouds,
Nourhedaia

Mwah.

Second picture of february series

2012-02-02T15:25:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

As promised, this is my second picture of february series.

Its a picture if my toes. Why toes? As i say, i capture anything around me.

So yes, make it short, this is my toes. It look ugly dont they? Well, who cares. ?

Lotsa love and stinky feet,
Nourhedaia©

Mwah.

Start february series

2012-02-01T17:52:00.001+08:00

So, hi.

Here i am. Wanting to blog.
Since iphone has blogger app, it makes blogging 63919737920284 easier. Yes. Definately. So, you will hear about me more often, i hope.

So, since its 1st february today, and knowing how much i love photography, i have this idea of creating a series. As in daily picture of each day on what captures my attention. Sounds cool?

So, i'll start my first picture of today.

Its a picture of a staircase. Yes i know, why stair case? This place means alot to me. I am weird but everyday i'll go to this stairs i name it T9 . Because its at level 9. I chill there alone or with my friends.

The neighbour there know me v well. Lol. I go there to "excersize my lungs" call me kental or whatever, its my life and your opinion isnt needed. Get that ?

So yes. I'll be back tomorrow to see what attracts my attention next.

Lotsa love and ciggies, nrhedyh.

Mwah.

Alahai taufik batisah reply tweet aku!

2012-01-15T04:33:00.001+08:00

I am smiling from ear to ear because taufik batisah replied my tweet. Omg!!!!! Alahaiiii!! Tak boleh tidur lah gini. Kk aku post gambar dia reply and gambar time aku tgk sinaran hati eh. Alahai si handsome!

Ps: gmbr sinaran hati jauh lah.

Goodnight mr handsome. <3

I still do

2012-01-15T03:31:00.001+08:00

Hello.

Yes, i cant sleep. Let's blow the dust in here. Ishhhh. Dah berabukkk.

Ahhh k.

Today, 560 days , 80 weeks , 20 months , since we broke up, its still you i miss. It has always been you. yes sufri. I thought it wont be this hard but yes. It is this hard. I miss you so much.

Its my fault for pushing you away when you tried to mend the situation. But you know, im still mad at that point. I changed my hp num, but u still have my house number right? I always hope to receive call from you.

Haish. I just realise i still have ur hp num in my bb. I have that urge to call, but..... No guts to. What if the truth hurts? What if you say you found my replacement? Haishhhhhh.... Stress ah. Please know the fact that i miss you..

I admit, after you, i had three rebound relationships. And it last for like what, few weeks? But no, the love isnt there. All because you took my love away with you. And yes, i swear, you are the last guy i had my lips on.

I hope you are doing good dear.

MUHAMMAD SUFRI, THIS GIRL HERE MISSES YOU AND........ LOVE, I STILL......DO. )';

Ps: how the hell korg move on cepat sangat ahhhh?!?!??? Ajar aku ahhhh!!!!

Haish. Dear 2012, please be good.

Lagi sekali ah, i miss you, sufri!

Testing

2012-01-15T02:50:00.001+08:00

Hi2. Testing one two three.

sad fur ah.

2011-07-04T05:05:00.002+08:00

PADAN MUKA AKU!!! SAPE SURUH PANDAI2 BACA2 ALEK POST2 DULU.

KAN DAH EMOSI TERGANGU.

FCUKKK!!!

SEDEY BULU AHHH..... RINDU SIA!!!!!!

assalamualaikum.

2011-07-04T04:37:00.002+08:00

WAA. LAMER PE TAK UPDATE.

Fact is, aku malas.

K. TODAY IS THE 4TH JULY!!

040706.

That day, i met him.

It WOULD have been the fifth. Yes, WOULD HAVE BEEN.

TAPI KAN,tak de jodoh lah kan. kan .

So, out of boredom, aku baca alek lah post2 pasal dia pat blog aku.

Reminds me of how hard it is to forget him. I went through hell lotsa trouble. YES. HELL lots of trouble .

Kalau ta percaye, tgk nie .

hmmmm.

SEKARANG KENE LUPER KAN LAGI SATU BALE PULAK.

DAH LAH, TANAK BERCINTA LAH. K TAK .

K BYE.

tempat ni dah berabuk.

2011-06-08T02:02:00.000+08:00

I have a problem . Serious one .

To cut it short.

Lappy crashed.

Windows corrupted.

I had to restore it.

Pictures with him all gone .

All those "love letters" he typed out while i was sleeping, GONE.

All the songs he sang, GONE.

All the conversation , GONE.

YES!

ALL GONE.

EVERYTHING IS GONE!!

I HOPE THIS IS SOMETHING GOOD,

1 STEP CLOSER TO CONFESS, IM OVER YOU.

YOU ARE DEAD AND GONE.

Wait. Maybe not yet.

It takes time.

It felt like i just bought myself a lappy.

k dah ah.

bye.

itunes, omg!!! kene tgu lagi nk download.

FML. K TAK. FYL.

what went wrong .

2011-04-16T00:16:00.001+08:00

I need someone to talk to.

But no one is here.

Bloggy, you are the only one i can spout all nonsense to.

Why must someone promise something when they know very well, they cant keep it?

WHY?

IS; PROMISED to stay, BUT he change. DRASTICALLY.

YES.

All i want to know is, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL WENT WRONG?

I CANT FIND THE ANSWER MYSELF.

WE were in good terms back then, i thought i FINALLY MOVED ON.

BUT FUCK.

IM STILL HERE.

So, about changing that relationship status to "in a relationship" was a lie.

I wasnt in relationship.

I was in disguise .

I told HIM, i moved on, and found someone new.

I THOUGHT IS WOULD BE THE ONE.

AS ALWAYS , IM WRONG .

FUCK.

(MIND MY LANGUAGE.)

WHY WHY WHY???

YOU WANNA LEAVE, BY ALL MEANS .

BECAUSE I KNOW , SOONER OR LATER, YOU WOULD .

BUT, CAN YOU JUST TELL ME WHY ?!!

AT LEAST I COULD MEND MYSELF .

BUT U SAID YOU ARE HAVING SOME PROBLEMS.

THATS EXCUSE . NOT THE REASON.

I WOULDNT MIND IF U TELL ME THE TRUTH, YOU FOUND SOMEONE ELSE,

OR ANY OTHER SHIT.

BUT NOT THIS SHIT PLEASE...

I REMEMBER LOSING SOMEONE BACK THEN,WITH THE FUCKING SAME REASON.

HAVING PROBLEMS.

AND WHY THE FUCK HAVING ME IN YOUR LIFE WHEN U CANT SHARE THE PROBLEMS WITH YOU???

PLEASE FIND SOME BETTER REASON...

I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHY!!!!!!!

YOU PROMISED ME SO MANY THING.

AND ALL I WANT WAS YOU TO STAY.

THATS ALL.

AM I TOO DEMANDING ?!!

PLEASE DONT PROMISE TO ANYONE, WHEN YOU ARE HAPPY.

YOU TEND TO FORGET THE PROMISE, WHEN YOU ARE SAD .

I JUST WANT YOU TO ENDURE ALL THOSE PROBLEMS YOU ARE HAVING AYE .

YOU BECAME MY DAILY ROUTINE.

WHEN YOU LEFT, LIFE'S A MESS .

EVEN DURING SMOKE BREAK, I CAN SOMEHOW HEAR YOUR VOICE.

CAUSE YOU WOULD ALWAYS ACCOMPANY ME ON THE PHONE, DURING SMOKE BREAK .

MAMA SAY," AHH, GADUH LAH TU, TU SEBAB TAK BERGANTUNG PAT TALIPON."

FML.

ALL I CAN CONVINCE MYSELF IS," HE IS NOT THE ONE GOD'S MATCHING ME WITH. SOMEONE BETTER IS OUT THERE."

PHEWWWWW.....!!

IM DONE TALKING SHIT. :)

REST WELL PEOPLE, GOD BLESS US.

I am 21 years, 5 days old.

2011-03-25T02:19:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum semua.

Yes, like finally. I am here to update this dusty place of mine . Pfft .

So, i turned 21, last 5 days and that explains my tittle.-.-

I had a surprise by by gfs on the 19th.

Went to EHUB.

SEOUL GARDEN >CAMWHORE> BIG MOMMA LIKE FATHER LIKE SON

And i dint expect fifi to be there .

Because for no reason she got pissed off with me . Yes. I still dont get why must she do that .

The next thing i know was, I saw a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY balloon from nowhere.

And fifi is behind it .-.-

I had a blast babygirls.

I appreciate it alot . I really do .<3

So, the next day , i had another celebration with the ITE babies .

At sunplaza park. YES .

WHY?

Tak salah kan.

Its the thought that actually counts.

I dont care where .

They bought me a cake and some tidbits.

I had fun too.

I received:

$100 FROM MAMA<3

$50 FROM PAPA<3

A T SHIRT FROM SHEILA<3

A MUG FROM IKAH<3

ANDANDAND,

THE MOST SPECIAL ONE AMONG ALL,

I got a NIECE.

SUPERDUPER HAPPY.

NIECE AND ME WILL BE CELEBRATING OUR BIRTHDAY TOGETHER STARTING FROM NEXT YEAR .(Y)

NUR FARISHA <3<3<3

YES . MALAS NAK UPLOAD GAMBAR , AS ALWAYS . IT WILL BE AT FACEBOOK.<3

GOODMORNIGHT . I AM WORKING LATER .

THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED ME.

BE IT THROUGH MSG, FB, OR ANYWHERE.

GOD BLESS US.

I cant deny, i miss you.

2011-02-19T01:53:00.001+08:00

Have you ever felt that feeling whereby, you are happily chatting with someone , and suddenly that someone say something that remind you of your ex and the mood change, TOTALLY?

OMG.

I just encountered that . :(

And the feeling is, SUCKY .

I MISS HIM. I seriously do .:(

I have that urge of checking my old sim card to check whether he msg me, but i guess, it wont be a good idea. :(

I miss him so much.

I wish, the person i was speaking happily to, was him. But its not .

FML .

And fuck, this UPPER IMPACTED WISDOM TOOTH suck alot!

YES, WISDOM!

omg.

FML. :(

Hais.

2011-02-03T03:21:00.000+08:00

I promise, i'll only meet him once a week.

Fair much?

Sorry i cant do any help.

I'll be the old me, once you found yourself, which is lost in the lalang , i guess.

Dont come and say im not being a good friend ok?

I bet, after today, confirm aku tersedak-sedak.

People will start talking about me .-.-

Ok, all the best in solving every obstacles you both have . ok?

Bye.

I'll be back, when you are back. ^^

That short getaway to KL.

2011-01-13T17:22:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum,

Where should i start?
Erm, KL.
OK, i went fo a short getaway to KL with Farhan, efah, and faz.

Yes, the four of us, only. And Farhan being the torns among the roses. Heh.

It was great . An experience .
:)

Shopped alot, yes . Alot.\m/
I spend like $400 ?

Hell yes.

-.-

Erm, ok, gambar ehh?

Pat fb lah, malas nak upload.

satu jer, nah...

Hee. Ignore my muka yang busuk. pfft.

Dalah, bored. Bye.

boredom gitu.

2010-12-25T02:28:00.001+08:00

Okay, i know i've not been updating my bloggy.

Reason being , BUSY.

Partially though.

AND PLAIN LAZY. Boley gitu? >.<

Heh. Okay, Life, plain boring.

Same routine all day. Work. Home. Work. Home .

Boring, kan?

Love life?

ah BORING UHH, NEXT!

Work? So far so good. Bonding great . With th dinner and dance, christmas and everything lah.

Family? hmm.

Mama patah kaki.

Had an operation . Masuk besi . Now still cant walk.

Depend on walking sticks.

See, all responsibility on me .

Can empathize me?

At this age, tied down to lots of problems.

Tapi takper, TUHAN TIDAK AKAN MENGUJI NASIB SESEORANG ITU LUAR DARI KEMAMPUAN HAMBANYA ITU .

So yea, im still alive though . Still standing strong .:)

Financial?

Since dah kerja, alhamdullilah. Can support myself now, and family abit here and there .

SO, YEA. Thats about it?

Ok last, nak share ape syabil post about me.:)

Sweet kan? aku tau .

Ok, bye .

I lost that one guy , along th way.

2010-11-23T03:11:00.002+08:00

ONE FINE DAY, I WILL.

HELL YESS!

EASIER SAID, THAN DONE. KAN SYAI?

I thought i managed to move on.

I thought i was moving on with life.

I thought by keeping myself busy with working life, will forget you.

I thought i found someone new.

I thought, he's better than you .

I thought i replaced you.

I thought........................................

My heart and mind was playing around with me.

Two different saying at the same time.

Heart says 'No'

Brain says 'yes'

So, which should i agree to?

You, were there when im down.

You promised me, you will mend my broken heart.

You say you wont do anything to hurt me, like he did.

You say, you will never leave me.

You promise, you'd stay.

You say, you love me.

You say, you will be responsible for everything.

You say, I am the one.

You say........

I believed you.

I trust you.

I gave you a chance to win my heart.

I start to open my locked heart.

I start to build trust.

I DID LOVE YOU.

I gave you what you want.

I gave you my all.

I gave you my love.

I gave you time.

You name me, what dint i give?

I gave everything.

What did i get i the end?

A step CLOSER to ANTI-LOVE.

A stronger proof that guys are all the same.

A worst mindset of love.

A phobia in trust.

A broken heart, again!

BUT STILL,

I learn,

A LESSON.

Boy, wait for that one day, you will realise, you lost someone who loves you, more than anyone could.

Moving on is not as easy as you think it is.

You will tend to get rebounds.

You thought you moved on, then you realize, he'S just another human being who wish to be in your life, just for a while.

You came in by the broken door, you left with from demolished door, due to the hard slam you made.

You came back to that demolished door, when you have agenda.

You left, soon after .

You left me hopeless.

But, yoou are doing all this hurtful things to my brain, not my heart.

Though my heart was the one who actually feels the breaks.

YET.............................................................

In life, every girl wants that one guy to prove to her, not all guys are the same.

And maybe, just maybe, she found that someone,

and yet lost him, along th way.

I am very sure, i did found that one guy who proves to me, not all guys are th same.

But, we were not fated to be together, somehow.

After we are no longer together, hell yes, he prove me right.

Ive never seen anyone, so devoted to a girl, as though, she's his another half.

Kudos to you.

Somehow, god made us realize, we met that someone who is actually there, in front of us, and make all this complicated issue, to see , if we are blind enough to realize.

I am proud, even when he is no longer mine, i know, ive met th right guy, along th way.

Th one who proves , not all guys are th same.

Not every girl got that chance.

And thanks to him, i am still standing strong, because i know, i'll meet another him, somewhere along th way.

I'm hoping th very best for him.

I think you know , who im referring to, right?

YOU! you might be reading this now, maybe.

You are the only ex bf who reads my blog.

Ouh yes, you.

Im proud , i once had you. (:

Im done with my nonsense here.

May allah bless us.

Ps: May karma be A LIL TOUGH towards you, RH.

You have my blessing though.

Kalau dah jodoh, tak kemana.

2010-10-07T18:40:00.001+08:00

Dear heart,

I am sorry, you got hurt, again.

I thought he is the one.

Well, he is not, after all.

Dear awak,

Why must all this happen to us, over and over and over again.

I thought our love is strong enough to hold on.

You prove me wrong.

You are just, the same.

You say," No matter what happen, i tanak you salah kan diri you, for whatever that happens between us. I still love you and i need you . Lets just go on time-off(fcuk, this is the 7487491648148607380 times we went on time off) We can still text, call, and meet-ups. I still want to get updated on your wellbeings."

WAAAIIITTTT! Did he just say meet up? Ok, now you tell me, how the hell am i going to face him? Maybe otp, i can somehow cover my "tak-kene-gaya-ness"

but, in real life? What am i suppose to call him? SAYANG? B? AWAK? BABY? OR, WORST, SUFRI? How am i gonna act like a "friend" ?

No more holding hands, no more goodbye kiss, no more gurau-ing, no more............................. fml like seriously.

fuckfuckfuck.

I changed his contact name from "babylove" to "oh-my-god" because i will have that omg feeling each and everytime his name appear on my screen.

I promised him to treat him out on a dinner date, on my payday. And being a girl of my words, i will still fullfill it despite us being only EX-PARTNERS!(eeeexxxxxxxxxxxxxx)):

How am i suppose to react ? HOW ?

I wont be able to hide these awkwardness even behind a mask, you bet.

We use to randomly say "b, i love you" or "awak, saya sayang awaak tau"

and now, nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnoooooooooooooooooooooooooo more!

We wont even have anything to talk about when he calls, eventhough, there is so much things that i want him to know. Too much that only tears can explain.

fml.

SEPTEMBER SOMEHOW SUCK.

Dear Syai, i feel you.

Lets endure all this dugaan dari illahi.

I hope the very best for you, dear ex.

(wait, the one above, is not refering to him.)

(This ex of mine, going through the same break up shits as me.)

Take care, kawan.

fuck.

2010-09-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

I am so fucking pissed off. I am at the verge of going nuts.
I hate xpress works. Bias !
Pilih bulu . Sial.
My pay was hold. Or worst still, forfeit. :(
MAJOR FUCK!
At this crucial moment, you want to hold my pay.
I was caught cheating ! Doing survey in my own, or not speaking to the right person.
I was partially at fault . But still, micheal is still being unreasonable. 40 quota.
FUCK . By hook or by crook , i will make sure , i get what i earn. Its not as if i cheat every survey what .
AND FOR SURE , I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO DID THAT.

FUCK!

I even get to know by kak linda, micheal told her and ~~fiza~~ that they will be gettin their pay on saturday morning, but , he told them not to tell me and farhan.
Cause we will be getting our pay on monday.
WTFH IS HE TRYING TO IMPLY?
DOESNT THAT MEANS THAT HE IS BEING BIAS ?

Buut fuck , now , i wont get any fucking cents. FUCK.

I AM SO TRAUMATIZED WHENEVER IT COMES TO MONEY MATTER .
MY PAY IS ~~$853~~!
GOES DOWN THE DRAIN JUST LIKE THAT ? I WILL MAKE SURE THAT DOESNT HAPPEN.
Cut any amount you want, but please , not forfeit it.

I will need to search for new job already . -.-

~~FUCKMYLIFE!~~

NO NEED ~~RAYA~~ . SIT AT HOME, CRY. :(

happy. rindu .

2010-09-01T22:39:00.001+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY SWEET 17TH, LOVE.:)

SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR, MURAH REZEKI.

GEGERL SAYANG BABY !

COUNTDOWN , 9 MORE DAYS , HARI HARI RAYA RAYA .

ISH .

AKU STRESS.

1. BELUM BELI BAJU RAYA.

2. BELUM BUAT KUIH.

3.BELUM KEMAS RUMAH.

4.GAJI MACAM SHORT GITU.

5.TAK TAU NAK BUAT APA DENGAN RAMBUT, FOR RAYA.

6. GAJI BELUM MASUK.

7.RINDU BOYFRIEND SANGAT2.

DAA, AKU STRESS.

RINDU BOYFRIEND SANGAT.

rindu dia sangat .

muhammad sufri . i nak kidnap you, boleh?:((((

crapzxz sia.

k bye.

i rindu you, kecik.:)

ps :gegerl sayang baby!

impossible

2010-08-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

i suka lagu nie. Ia cerita tentang hidup saya.

bye.

xoxo.

after so many centuries.

2010-08-28T14:46:00.000+08:00

Hello . Blog's DEAD siia . -.-

; I miss baby , wait , i dont miss him. HUh? eyshh . aku confused .
(stated , relationship , complicated muchh .)

Last saturday , went iftar with ITE gfs . <3
Had lotsa fun, bebeh . :) you bet .
After 3 long years , we dont see each other.
Pictures, in fb .:)

I am actually not in the mood to blog.
I owe you a proper post, dear bloggy .:)

xoxo.

Muhammad Sufri, i SAYANG you .

Mr Micheal , you are bias .

2010-08-05T16:20:00.000+08:00

I get annoyed when i come to realise , Li Ling , got her pay . Being a full time staff , you get you pay on time ? WTH? She got her pay, last week, while here we are, the part timers , stuck without our pay . I promise you , micheal , by sunday, my pay's not in , i'll report MOM. IM not like others who will just ignore this matter and let you gain the benefits , ok? I am not money-minded or anything . BUT , i deserve my rights .

FVCK YOU , BIAS !

MAJOR HEADACHES.

2010-07-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

Major headaches = foul mood = stay at home .

aaarrrrggggghhh!

BLOODY HEADACHES HURTS HELL MUCH .

SUMPAH I HATE IT OKAY.

MY WORLD SPINS SO FAST .

AS IF 2012 IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN . -.-

OKAY BYE. I BETTER SLEEP . !

mr jamali, i swear , i miss you.

2010-07-10T23:34:00.001+08:00

I officially miss My Mr Jamali .(my father ) lol.

See, i even listed him as my parents in fb.

And he accepted it. So, im listed as his children.:)

Ok, not my real father . Treat him like one . And i swear , its like so v long since i met him.

Mr Jamali, please meet up very very soon.

Yaya misses you that much.

:)

Anw, i am in a total foul mood .

Barang sesiapa langgar wire, STANDBY KENE ELECTRIC SHOCK !

OK, bye . Before i curse anyone.

GOODNIGHT.

Very very true .

2010-07-10T03:19:00.000+08:00

My today's horoscope. & TRUE . Atikah and an got a good talk from me and Mahathir..:)

Bye . xoxo

i forgive.

2010-07-09T04:18:00.010+08:00

Tak betul aper aku cakap?

ok, goodnyt. xoxo

I am so into BEAST OK.

2010-07-07T22:11:00.005+08:00

I <3 the band, BEAST .

A Korean Band .

Handsome-Sangat-Sangat-Punyer . :))

DU JUN & GI KWANG . OHMYGAWWD. *MELTS*

Du Jun is the first from the left.

Gi Kwang is the fourth from the left .

HOT-HOT-HEAT !! SUMPAH SIA.

OK, here iam rotting.

Waiting for half time to ends.

Good match here .

Not so sure now.

Somehow, i dont mind who wins, because spain, germany and netherlands are my favourites.

So, who cares?

Ok, i am out of here .

xoxo.

I am suffering from insomnia.-.-

2010-07-06T02:41:00.003+08:00

Guess what? i think , im suffering from bloody insomia . -.-

I cant bloody go to sleep .

So, here i am, spouting my nonsense .

I only come to realise , last two days was 4th of july , which reminds me of Azuan .

Last 4 years , i call you mine. We broke up after 2 great years .
And soon, he is getting engaged . :)

I dont bare grudges lah . I am happy for him , too .
You have my blessing, wan. (No one cares , hidayah ! -.-)

Should i say he is the best bf? Well, i guess, just not yet .
Best friend , a TOTAL yes !:)

And yes, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY , NUR RASINAH AKA RAS. :)

May all your wishes do come true .

May all the jerks whom hurt you, get knock down by a truck!
(okay , aku tau aku takder link . -.-)

Actually , this post dah terlambat 2 hari. Hahaha.

It also falls on 4TH JULY 2010!

GRRRR.... lagy2 4th july.....lagy2 4th july...-.-

Better stop my nonsense and go to play... erm... salah... go to sleep !:)

EYY... WAIT!! MY NEW BOYFRIEND...,:)

OK, bye. xoxo

2010-07-05T01:48:00.000+08:00

Baby , swear , i miss you .

IDK WHY , but , boy , i missed you like never before.

B , I RINDU YOU .

Y' know, this time off hurts ALOT .
But i believe that much in fate .

I miss being in your arms.
I miss your lips .
I miss your touch .
I miss the way you call me "babygirl..."
I miss the way you sleep and the way you snore .
I miss the time i just stare at you, while you sleep, and tried to mimic the way you snore and follow your heart beat...LOL.
I miss the way you smile, and every anger fadeS off...
I just miss you .

I am strong enough to endure all this , baby .

Every REBOUND after you, suck .

I admit , they are better , but then, i realise its just a rebound , because all i want is you.

Baby , i still love you , and i will always do.

I MISS YOU ALOT , SAYANG .

How i wish, whenever i wake up, having you by my side and ASK, "what time sayang?" like you always did.

Muhammad Sufri , i swear , i miss you .

XOXO

2010-06-25T22:10:00.001+08:00

I LOVE MY STUPID-PIG-SPECIAL-FRIEND. <3

Redha, sumpah tak kelakar. Tolong jangan buat lagy. SIAL. <3

OUR STUPID CONVO. AFTER 8 HOURS OF MISSING.
HE MSGED ME, "OI..... AMACAM?? HAHAHA"
I RELIPED;
gegerl: aper yang amcm?!
gegerl: oiii!! reply lahh!
gegerl: oii!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gegerl: kau nak reply ke tak nie?
SYSTEM: The above message did not go through as you have reached your quota limit.
him: Hahahaha...mcm2 ar....
gegerl: KAU ASL?
him: Hahahaha.....
gegerl: oii! maner kau pergi?
him: Pergi mane2....hahahahaha...
gegerl: oi! stop it lah! kau mabok per?
him: Hahahahaha....apa saje...lau kau pikir aku mabok jgn msg...da lah bie kol me...
gegerl: KAU BESAR PUNYE BABI!!!!!!!!!!! JANGAN BUAT LAGI !!! AKU SAYANG KAU, BODOH!!!!!!!!!!!
gegerl: BYE STUPID PIG! I AM GOING HOME. LOVE YOU!! DAH SAMPAI RUMAH, MSG K BABY BABI! :)))))))
gegerl: AKU GERAM DGN KAU!!! ISHHHH!!! BYE.

THAT IS WHY I LOVE HIM. HIS SUSPENSE MAKE ME GO WALALALA.
CB.

BYE! NAK TENGOK BOLA.
PEOPLE PREDICT, BRAZIL 3; PORTUGAL 1.
I AM GOING TO FLOOD YOUR FB WALL IF YOUR PREDICTION ISNT AS GOOD AS DAVID BLAINE'S . :)

2010-06-18T18:18:00.000+08:00

Saper Lagy hot ? Alicia Keys? Or Katy Perry?

Saper lagy hansome?

Rapper paling cool?

Saper lagy handsome?

Omg!

OK, aku mendak actually..

Life suck.

Relationship suck.

i suck.

Ok, bubye..:(

over

2010-05-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

Every effort i make , goes down the drain .

I hate break-ups .
I really do .

Sufri , what did i do wrong to deserve all this ?
You KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU SO MUCH ?
You said you cant give me what a bf should ?
You said this relationship is boring ?
Kadang you rase syg, kadang tak ? aku ni anak patong kau per ?
Not like any other happy couples ?
You ask me to look for a new guy , better than you .
Must i ?
what if i insist on you ?

DOES ALL THAT MATTERS ?
NO. YOU ARE ALL THAT MATTERS !

SUFRI , PLEASE !!!!!!!

I NEED YOU MORE THAN I NEED ANYONE ELSE !!!

I HATE BREAK UPS !!

HAIS ! I STILL LOVE YOU , SUFRI ! I REALLY DO !!!

APER LAGYK YANG SUFRI NAK DARI ORANG ?
SEMUA SUFRI NAK , ORANG KASI .
SEMUA !
ORANG CUMER MINTAK KASIH SAYANG DARI SUFRI , ITU JE . ORANG TAK MINTAK DUIT SUFRI .

ARGHH !!
LOVE SUCK !!!!

2010-05-14T17:10:00.001+08:00

I LOVE MY BOTAK BOY , ALOT !~\

B, I want to watch Karate Kid . (:

Showing in June , i guess .

Must watch ok, b .

Last Monday , to the movies with baby .

Ipman 2 , awesome !

Love it .

The actor, like wow .

Handsome banget dehh .

He look awesomely-gorgeous when he act in the movie, SPL .

Thanks baby for the Chocolate Macadamia , Ben & Jerry .

Thanks baby , for the treat . (:

Thanks baby , for the necklace .

LOVE IT , ALOT . (:

Thanks baby , for everything .

I love you , alot .

Last Wednesday , meet baby , again .

Burger King's Hershey Choc pie. :)))

Love it .

Ok , stop it ehh b . All we do is, eat chocolate & waste your money . -.-

Last Sunday ,

Kak Noreen's got engaged . -.-

Gf pon tak lamer nak tunang.

Ex pon dah nak tunang .

Semua dah nak tunang .

Aku, bile ?

Tak nak pon . :P

As long as i have him by my side , that is enough .

Tak perlu tunang2 nie sume . :)

Betul tak b ???

ILYSMB.(:

baby , i love you

2010-05-01T15:59:00.001+08:00

; Baby , ILY . :)

I am here to update . :)

Yesterday , i meet my boyf . :)
After almost two weeks ?
-.-
I sure do miss him , so muchh .

Window shop with him , an and fid, at Tampines One .

I love his accompany . :)
I feel safe with him by my side . :)

I realise , all those argue we had , its not worth , so , i learn to just ignore . and let him realise himself .

He called me yesterday, " baby, im sorry ."
me: "why?"
Him: "For not being a good bf ."
Me: "huh? takmu mepek lahh b ."
Him: sorry baby , i tau i ade byk buat salah , i mintak maaf k b .
Sometimes i talk to girls without telling you, Sometimes you suruh i gy keje , i tak gy . Sorry sebab kadang i marah you for no reason . Sorry baby . I love you so much .

:)

hah. see, he felt guilty for no reason .
I dont mind him talking to other girls , but, i want him to know his limit .
I want him to know that he is only mine .
I want him to know that i trust him (80% lahh)
I want him to know that i love him so much .!

Love you SAYANG !

omg ! love you .

Muhammad Sufri , SAYA SAYANG AWAK ! :)

DEPRESSED.

2010-04-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

Hey there .
I am in the mood to type , but not sure , what to post about . =.=
Erm, something is wrong with my blogger .
I can't seems to upload video .
How ?
Erm , YOUTUBE seems to be a pain in the arse .
Is it my lappie or what ?

Forget it .
Erm, today, fifi 's going to Ungu's live in SINGAPORE. fuuhhh !
Gerek Perr !

testing2...

saappp... There can already... But My lappie cant view the video..

Dalah, bye lah..

FUCKMYLIFE*

AL FATIHAH..

2010-04-18T16:06:00.002+08:00

ACHIK SPIN, TELAH KEMBALI KERAHMATULLAH PADA 17 APRIL 2010.
SEMOGA ROHNYA DICUCURI RAHMAT...
AMIN...

:(

fifi, imy like hell .

2010-04-15T13:02:00.000+08:00

fi, dengar lagu ni... especially for you.
just so you know, i miss yoou sooo much !
papa(mr jamali), sampai tanye aku, kite gadoh ehh??
wth? i feel like i barely know you .
i miss you and mr jamali alot !!!!

sumpah sia.....!

nah, read this lyrics~

~Saat gembira tertawa
Saat berduka kita sama-sama
Duduk bermuram durja

Kita saling memerlukan
Menghormati satu ikatan
Itulah... ertinya persahabatan

Ada kalanya terkasar bahasa
Tapi kita saling memaafinya
Pahit manis kecapi bersama
Bersatu hadapi segala... oohhh

Bersamalah teman kita hargai
Mahkota suci... oohhh
Bersamalah teman kita harungi
Istana erti persahabatan

Berkekalanlah hendaknya
Kemesraan diantara kita
Seandainya tak lagi bersama
Semat kenangan mengusik jiwa... oohhh~

haha. so jiwang, i know.
meet you soon, b.

miss you alot !

anw, that day i dream, me, fifi and mr jamali, went out.

he dash across the road and got knock down by a car plate, 2359,
he is filled with bloods all over, and say to us,
"if anything happen to me, please promise me, both of you will take good care of yourself.. my prayers are with you"

i cried like hell.
and woke up, realising it was only a dream, but i still continue crying.
lucky mr jamali called and say that he is doing fine...
TG!

thats about all...
ps: mr jamail, layang2 dah putus perr?! haha. miss you.

happy birthday, ex .

2010-04-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd birthday, Muhammad Al-Ansar !
Semoge panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki !
May your wishes do come true, my friend !
May you be a better someone ! :')

hahaha.

Am i trying to say that he is not good ? Yes ! haha.

Whatever it is, once again,

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY !

ego.ego.ego

2010-04-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

Muhammad Sufri Bin Mohamed Ali, do you know how much i miss you?
I know, i am ego.
Look yourself in the mirror, you are as ego.
Or should i say, worst ?
B, please, put your ego aside .

Fine , as i said, lets play this game .
I'll play along.
I am game enough for all this .
You said, go with the flow, & that is what exactly, i am going to do.

& Please do not say , i change or any kind of shit.
I bet, you already realise the change in me , right ?

I will treat you how you treat me, but that doesnt mean, i dont love you.

I love you , as strong as always.

No more the MANJE2 me.
No more the b-pergi-b-balik thingy.
I will be like a friend, who only wants to noe your daily life.
Whenever you talk about your ex, i will totally ignore !
& I will talk about my ex too.
Kalau saket hati, fair lah ,.
Due2 saket hati perr.

Nak tunjuk u punye ego, fine, kite tgk.
Sampai biler you boleh tahan.
Jangan cakap i perangai budak or whatever shit.
Im just being a mirror on yourself.,

GOT THAT , BABY ?
Lets play .:')

I will......
Cut down on smoking.(I do not want you to be a passive smoker)
Go with the flow.
Treat you, how you treat me.
Solat(insyallah)
BE MATURED.
& just ignore any shits.

BECAUSE , I BELIEVE, OUR LOVE IS STRONG.

I LOVE YOU, SAYANG.

SAY ALL YOU WANT, I COULDN'T CARE LESS.:')

C'mon, I AM GAME ENOUGH !

PS: MY LOVE WONT CHANGE.

Aku Masih Sayang- St12

2010-03-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

This song reminds me of you.*to-whom-it-may-concern*

Baby, please help me forget him.

I am progressing well.

But no worries, my love is just for you.

Ps: Muhammad Sufri, ILY !

b.

2010-03-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

Muhammad Sufri Bin Mohamed Ali, I Miss You!

Bought baby, belt.

Hope you like it.

Though it doesn look that formal for you to wear it for work.

But, i really hope you like it!

Monday, dont forget to bring your mp3!

You can have mine.:)

Love you SKINHEADBOXER!

MWAHHH!~

Baby, we are one month old.:)

2010-03-26T12:55:00.004+08:00

Baby, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you.
Happy 22nd Birthday.:)
May all your wishes do come true.
May you be blessed.:)

& Happy first MONTH-SARY
to us, sayang.

I want you to know that i love you so much sayang.
Despite all those fights we had.
Despites all those disagreements .
But still, we both know that we love each other so much.
& wouldnt want to leave without each other.

I LOVE YOU ALOT SAYANG!

+ Happy 17th to Mahathir Muhammad Anwar Al-Fitri.:")

Semoga panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki.
Jangan noty2!

Met baby yesterday after his work.
Went to Marks and Spencer to get some chocs.
Baby is a fan of chocs, in which i dont really like and plus, Marks and Spencer 's choc is v sweet. Too sweet infact.

Then he send me home, We lepak bwh blk jap, and he use lappy.
See, what he do, he is so particular about small little details.

it must all be align.

chetchetchet.

But, it doesnt seems align here.-.-

Mati aku lau die nampak.

haha.

Those are the songs he wants me to search.
And some random things in which i find quite true. Plus his training Schedule.

BTW, baby wants to show me, something He call 'INNER STRENGTH'

He close his eyes and push my shoulder and its EFFORTLESS!~ but, i fall so bad! terbalik aku!~

SIAK UHH B!

He himself terkejut, " kuat ke i kasi? tu baru sikit sehh b. SORRY2."

PADAN MUKE AKU, NAK TRY SANGAT KAN.

TSKTSKTSK.

hahaa.

Song Name: Artists:

Hysteria: Muse

Time Is Running Out: Muse

Stockholm Syndrome: Muse

Plug In Baby: Muse

Muscle Museum: Muse

Unintented: Muse

We Fight For Love Commando: Andy Taylor

Guridam Nyawa: Unknown (S'porean Twins)

Round One KrayTwinz: D&G

Uh-Oh Brasco: 18th Floor

Dela Ce Allenarmici Love: Unknown

Sampaikan Salam: Sudirman

Original Predator Movie: Unknown

Theme(Jungle Version)

Smoke Machine: Unknown

Kuda Hitam: Unknown

Oh Rina: Unknwon (Local Tk Salah)

Volume 2 Local

For The Adelphi: The Bois

Cream of The Crops: The Bois

Junkies: The Bois

SHARP SKIN: The Bois

LionCity Hooligan: Brewing Boots

Bois In Blue: Brewing Boots

Wicked Witch Brainwashing: Brewing Boots

Hooligan: Rogue Squat

Worka Hooligan: Roots And Boots

A Sucessful Man is one who makes more money than his wife.

A Sucessful wife is one can find such Man.

A true man wants two things: Danger and Play for the reason he wants woman as the most dangerous plaything.

Women like silent men, they think they are Listening.

Sure men were born to lie; and woman to believe them.

Woman's mind is cleaner than man's she change it more often.

In order to own a rose, one have to accept its torns

Perempuan susah nak basah but senang nak dibasahkan.

Believe it or not. Woman has Man in it.

Mrs has Mr in it.

Female has Male in it.

She has he in it.

Madam has Adam in it.

No wonder Men always want to be inside Women.

Men were born between the legs of a woman, yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a Woman.

Why?

BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME.

Ever notice how all women's problem start with Men?

MENtal illness,

MENstrual cramps,

MENtal breakdown,

MENopause,

GUYnecologist

AND..

When they have REAL trouble,

it's a HISterectomy.

"Perkara Halal yang paling dibenci Allah swt ialah talak (CERAI)"

"Perempuan itu dinikahi kerana 4 perkara:

Kerana HARTANYA,

Kerana KETERUNANNYA,

Kerana KECANTIKANNYA,

Kerana AGAMANNYA.

Pilih lah yang beragama agar selamat dirimu."

When you loved the one who was killing you, it left you no options..

If your life was all you had to give, how could you not give it?..

If it was someone you truly loved?..

My Training.

A) Warmup - 2.4km Jog

Sprinting - 100m (5 round of 5 sets)

Skipping - 3mins non-stop of 3sets

Pushup - 100reps interval

Shoulder Press - 15kg (10reps/4 sets)

Shoulder lateral Fnt, Bck, Side - 7.5/5kg (15reps/4 sets)

Chinup - 12reps interval

Crunches - 100reps interval

Leg raise - 100reps interval

Shadow Boxing - 5sets of 3 min interval

SpeedBall - 3sets of 3 min interval

Double handball - 3sets of 3 min interval

Touch Sparring - 3sets of 3 min interval

B) Warmup - 2.4km Jog

Sprinting - 100m (5 round of 5 sets)

Skipping - 3mins non-stop of 3sets

Shoulder Press - 15reps (Fnt,Bck,Side)

Chinup - 12reps interval

Legraise - 100reps interval

Incline pushup - 100reps interval

1,2 Hook - 10reps of 3 mins

1,2 Uppercut - 10reps of 3 mins

Shadow Boxing - 5sets of 3 min interval

Speedball - 3sets of 3 min interval

Double handball - 3sets of 3 min interval

Sparring - 3sets of 3 min interval

CORE-Training

REPS - 1-3

SETS - Depanding.

Bench Press - 15kg, 25kg, 30kg, 50kg, 75kg, 85kg, 105kg.

Shoulder Press - 15kg, 20kg, 25kg, 27.5kg, 30kg.

DeadLift - 20kg, 30kg, 50kg, 75kg, 95kg, 100kg.

Front Squat - 15kg, 20kg, 25kg, 30kg, 45kg, 50kg.

Back Squat - 15kg, 20kg, 25kg, 35kg, 40kg, 60kg.

Chinup - 12reps

Lat Pull Down - 85kg, 100kg, 120kg, 150kg.

Tyre - 230kg - 5reps and 3 sets

Diet For Ramadan,

Sahur 0500hrs - 1 cup of Oatmeal (Oat with plain water reheat and eat) (PLAIN)

1 Banana

1 Scoop of Whey Protein

10 or 5 egg white and 2 egg yolk.

Buka 1900hrs - 1 Scoop of Whey Protein + 1 Scoop of Oat

250g of Chicken Breast/Slice Fish

1 Medium size Yam/Sweets Potato

2200hrs - 1 Scoop Oat/1 yam/1 Sweet Potato

250kg Chicken Breast/Slice Fish

0200hrs - 2 Scoop of Whey Protein.

See the arm lah, mane tak tercampak aku!

PS: DONOT EVER TRY A BOXER!~-.-
LOVE YOU , SKINHEAD BOXER(!)

Pichass asss promised.

2010-03-23T13:56:00.000+08:00

Pictures as promised.
Choosen ones only, the rest, at facebook

thanks.

2010-03-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

Thanks alot to those who make my chalet a success !

Thanks!

pictures will be uploaded soon.

♥ you guys alot!

again, what went wrong?

2010-03-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

Again, what went wrong?

i dont know what is happening to everyone.

am i at fault?

anger all around.

where did i go wrong?

why all this happen at this point of time?

why?

why am i at fault?

why?why?why?

please tell me?

did i say anything wrong?

huh?

please lahh.

please clear my doubts.

please.

everything goes haywire.

fi, did i do anything wrong?

did my burger possessed you?

you are not my fifi.

who the hell are you?

why are you taking over my friends body?

ok, this may sound funny, but its real.

SUPER GRUMPY MONSTER POSSESSED FIFI!

PLEASE, BRING MY FRIEND BACK.

PLEASE, I ALREADY HAVE TOO MANY PROBLEMS TO OVERCOME.

PLEASE FI, I WANT THE OLD YOU.

WAHAI SUPER GRUMPY MONSTER, KEMBALI LAH KAU KE TEMPAT ASAL MU. JANGAN LAH KAU GANGGU KAWAN KU...HAHAHAHA.

PS:FI, GET INTO TERMS PLEASE.

where did i go wrong?

2010-03-19T13:57:00.000+08:00

WHERE DID I GO WRONG?

WHY ME?

"KALAU TAWU MACAM NIE, ......" (2 ORANG CAKAP MACAM GITU)

APE SALAH AKU?

ASAL KENE CAKAP MACAM GITU?

KORG MENYESAL?

AKU MINTAK MAAF.

KALAU AKU TAWU, AKU PON TANAK.

BOTH WHO SAY THAT, SOMEONE I LOVED DEARLY.

WHY?

HAIZ.

AM I AT FAULT?

LIFE IS SO UNFAIR.

I UNDERSTAND YOUR SELF-SABOTAGING-MECHANISM ATTACKS YOU.

BUT STILL,.....

:(

TOMORROW, MY BIG DAY, HOPES THIS FEELING FADE AWAY SOON.:(

AFTER THE RAINS STOP, I SHALL BRING MY BRO, FLY KITE.

:)

THANKS BOYF FOR CHEERING ME UP YESTERDAY, WHEN I AM AT THE VERGE OF GIVING UP.

THANKS BABY.
PLEASE DONOT THROW TANTRUMS ANYMORE.
CONTROL LAH B.

ANW, BABY'S BREATH IS LIKE SO FAST THAT I GOT EXHAUSTED AFTER TRYING TO CATCH HIS PACE. HAHA.

HE SLEEPS LIKE A BABY, HE SNORES LIKE A MAN.:)

PS: LOOKING AT YOU SLEEP, JUST MAKE SMILE.:)

where are you?

2010-03-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

Good afternoon.

Where are you boyfriend?

He said he got something urgent to discuss yesterday, but i guess both fall asleep after watching TERMINATOR:RISE OF THE MACHINES.

Till now, he havent call.

im abit worried already.

What is the thang he wants to discuss about?

I hate this kind of wait.

He did not even return my sms.

MUHAMMAD SUFRI, PLEASE CLEAR MY DOUBTS!

I AM EFFING WORRY ALREADY!

NEVERTHELESS, hopefully nothing bad.:)

meeting FIFI tomorrow.

MISS HER ALREADY!

PS: I TRUST YOU , BABY.4 MORE DAYS, MY 20TH.:)

YOURS SINCERELY,

HIDAYAH

16.03.2010

1258HOURS

Babylove

2010-03-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hello earth!

Just got back from meeting baby.

We were like clueless, time constrain.

Out of plan.

Hahaha.

We end up, jalan-jalan at BUGIS.

He got so worried, idk why.

He even apologise for no reason. lol. crazy boyf.

He is suppose to pass me an ayat, for me to bring to chalet.

SEE, BOYFRIEND IS RELIGIOUSLY PROTECTIVE.

BUT, HE FORGOT! SO, HAVE TO MEET HIM SOME DAY AT HIS WORKPLACE TO TAKE IT.-_-

I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD FOR MY 20TH!

THE CHALET, THE CELEBRATION. AND EVERYTHING LAHH.

FFT WILL BE CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY AT THE END OF THE MONTH.

HAHA. BERTURUT-TURUT!

OK, GTG ALREADY, BOYF CALLED.

GOOD NIGHTS.

LOVE ALL.

PS: BOYFRIEND, I LOVE YOU. AND AS LONG AS YOU ARE BESIDE ME, I M FINE, EVEN IF I HAVE TO JUST STARE INTO YOUR EYES FOR HOURS.:)

life is great.

2010-03-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
Dint do the updating for quite sometime right.
Been busy. With courses.:)
Been busy with boyf, also. hees.:)

Me and baby's doing great. We are strong enuff to endure every obstacles. Yessa.
I'm lying if i say, we dont have our downs, yes , we do have our ups and downs.
But as i say, We are strong enuff to endure.

After my ec+ course, alhamdullillah, i am a positive someone now. hees.
Too positive. I can even ignore any stupid or negative comments receive.
hahaaha. try me.

me and fifi been searching up and down for jobs lately.
I am confident, i got the job. SEE, I TOLD YOU, VERY POSITIVE!
Research shows, 87% of human mindset are negative.
see, that is what holding us from getting what we want, so, when you have any good thoughts or intention, do act! do not wait, just fire!

haha.

ok, gtg. 6 more days, my 20th:)

ps;baby, i love you.

i am sad.

2010-03-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

I AM SAD.
WHAT WENT WRONG?
EVERYTHING CHANGE.
ITS TRUE WHAT MR JAMALI SAID, NEW THINGS ARE ALWAYS NICE.
I JUST GOT TO KNOW THAT HE ACTUALLY MEET KAK NOREEN BEFORE MEETING ME. HE DINT EVEN TELL.

I AM MAD BECAUSE HE LIED.
ON WEDNESDAY, I LOOK INTO HIS EYES AND ASK, 'YOU DAH PENAH JUMPE KAK NOREEN?' AND I CAN SENSE THAT HE IS LYING. HE SAID NO.
I ASKED HIM ALOT OF TIME.

HE STILL DENY,.
AND KAK NORREN CONFESSED, THEY MET BEFORE.

WHY MUST HE LIE?
I KNOW, HE DONT WANT ME TO THINK THE WRONG WAY,
BUT CM,ON UH, MANE HAK AKU SEBAGAI MATAER?

HAIS..

TO LOVE IS TO FORGIVE.

The Usuals.

2010-03-06T14:40:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, we meet Mr Jamali.
Do some shoppings for the upcoming chalet.
Plus accompany Mr Jamali shop.

Thanks Mr jamali For the swensens + coffee bean..

I m in the mood to fly kite, and plan with fifi to go kite flying next friday at marina barrage with mr jamali.

Looking forward to it badly.

this are some photos.

THANK YOU , Mr Jamali for making our day.

:)

ps: 2 weeks to 20.

fft

2010-03-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

FFT, HAPPY FIRST FRIENDSHIP-SARY!

I LOVE AND MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!!

♥

DEEP IN ME, YOU GUYS ARE THERE.

♥ YOU GUYS ALOT TAW!!!!

thanks ♥ .

2010-03-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

♥, THANKS FOR FETCHING ME HOME.

FEEL BAD THOUGH.

FIFI KENE ALEK SENDIRE.

SORRY FI... I OWE YOU..

JANJI, AFTER THIS, KITER ALEK SAMER2...

♥ YOU FI....

i wish..

2010-03-03T23:15:00.001+08:00

BABY BOXER, I WISH YOU WERE HERE.

I MISS YOUR WARMTH.

I MISS YOUR KISSES.

I MISS YOUR TOUCH.

I MISS YOU...

MUHAMMAD SUFRI, I MISS YOU.

its time to let go, azuan.

2010-03-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

AZUAN, it is time to let you go.

I believe i have found someone better. A nd he actually resembles you. idk why.

long lost siblings takk.

ERM, I love you mr boxer.

I love you alot.

It feels so diff this time.

And i am very sure that this isnt any rebound relationship.

I know i do love him, and he loves me too.

By far, only him, who proves to me that he do love and i actually feel his love.

but, i wont say the love is stronger then how my love towards you was.

but i believe, love grows.

260210.

THE DAY I FOUND HIM.

i LOVE YOU ALOT MR BOXER!!

~MUHAMMAD SUFRI BIN MUHAMMAD ALI, I LVE YOU!

PS: I LOVE YOU.

I AM EGO.

2010-02-27T13:43:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

Azuan , this picture says everything.

I know you understand it very well.

You know me that well right.

So please, do something.

Its ok if you wanna say that i dont take the initiative.

But......... NVM.

PS: I MISS YOU.

guys.

2010-02-26T15:03:00.001+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.
SOMETHING I READ IN THE NET.

Why do guys change from day to day?

It is a question which often arises in the minds of girls that why do guys change from day to day? When a guy changes unpredictably mostly it happens because he is confused. Actually they are confused about what they really want from you, they just know one thing very clearly that they want you in their life. Some guys are slow in understanding their relationship and are not sure about what they truly want beyond knowing you. In fact a guy who do acts like that, likes you, but the problem is he don’t know how much he like you and keep on assessing his inner feelings about you. So, he tries to do what it takes to keep you around him and when you get closer to him to the extent he is not ready for you to be he pushes you away. You can do nothing to move forward a guy who is stuck in a situation like this. What you can do is to wait because the hesitancy he is dealing with has nothing to do with you. Live your normal life and don’t close your heart for other guys, until that confused guy make his move and is ready to give you something solid to build your relationship.

Why do guys have so many girlfriends?

There are many factors which are fueling the trend of multiple relationships among men. Men work for longer hours than women. And all of us know that a relationship is something which needs time to prosper. Nowadays the tight working schedule of a guy doesn’t allow him much time. But it is also a fact that you can’t know a person completely after one or two dates. So, what is a busy guy supposed to do, date a girl exclusively for a year and in the end learn that they are not compatible. No it is totally wastage of time. That’s why guys date multiple girls at the same time and figure out the girl they like before making any commitments. Actually guys want to make their options open and another reason for dating with multiple girls is that guys feel insecure. As they worry that a girl can dump him. Guys have many girlfriends because they are confused and indecisive about choosing the right girl which they really want in their life. There is something which can’t be denied and that is some guys love risks and playing games in relationships, so they enjoy having more than one girlfriend.

why do men lie?

It’s not hard to point out why men lie? Men have great sense of humor and absurd and they often tell a lie to find a few laughs and make the party lively. On some occasions men love to lie because it is less complicated. If it requires long explanations and supporting facts to tell a truth, the easy and uncomplicated option is to tell a lie. Rather than explaining long stories to their girlfriend, which wastes a lot of time and effort and may be still your girlfriend has disgruntled looks and dissatisfied expressions on her face. That’s why men prefer to lie in such situations. Another factor involved is that men think that if the lie is not a major one, means it is innocuous and results in no harm to anyone then what’s wrong with it, it is just a simple little harmful lie which hurts no one. There are men with an attitude that they get into trouble when they tell the truth because they think that there partner is not able to handle that. And it is often true, a man tries to tell the truth and thought being honest is a great thing but later he discovers that it was much better to tell a lie or simply avoid the truth.

THings that your boyfriend wont tell you.

Often girls think that guys love the single life and don’t like to settle down. Sure it is true to some extent but it is not fully true because a great number of guys describe their won’t settle down counterparts as immature ones. Generally, guys love to be in love relationships as much as girls do. Another thing guys won’t tell you is that they hate when you pull away from them. In the beginning stages of a relationship they don’t mind the chase but once they have made a commitment to you they want the chase to stop. Guy like it when his friends like his girlfriend but it turns into hate when they want her. A guy can’t even handle the thought of losing her girlfriend to one of his friends because in this way he loses her, his friend and most importantly it hurts his ego. Interestingly a guy wants his girlfriend like, but not love, his friends. He doesn’t want you to care what other guys think about you. Actually guys worry that you will dump them. They don’t think much about dumping you but worry a lot about the idea that you will dump them.

THATS ABOUT ALL. TRUE MUCH THOUGH.:)

i am looking forward for my 20th.

2010-02-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

I am looking forward for my 20th birthday .

Hopefully everything goes as plan.

On 20th march, fifisyg say she and ayubaby plans something for me. (?)

on 21st MARCH, the chalet cum reunion for csp.

celebrating both mine and fifisyg birthday,.

i am so looking forward to it.

i hope this will be good birthday celebration(atleast)

PLEASE DO NOT SCREW.

SHIT DO HAPPEN.

HOPEFULLY NOTHING BUT THE BEST.:)

IM OUT!

fi, YOU SHOCKED ME.

2010-02-25T21:08:00.001+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

AND SO, I MEET FIFI AT TAMP INT.

PROCEED TO LONG JOHN. 

FIFI SAY:  KAU TUNGGU SINI. AKU BELI.

ME: KAYH..

DHEN SHE CAME BACK TO ME AND BRING JUST ONE MEAL.

ME: FI TAK MAKAN?

FIFI: TAK, DIET!

HUH? DIET LAH PULAK. AND SHE ASK ME TO MAKAN PELAN2.

SUDDENLY, I SAW SOMEONE I MISS ALOT, MR JAMALI!!!

MR JAMALI: ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

*SALAM*

ME: *HUH* KENAPE MR JAMALI ADER KAT SINI EYY? FI, YOU ARE SO GETTING IT FROM ME!

WE TALK WHILE FIFI BUYING THE MEALS.

AND WE TALK AND LAUGHED LIKE NOBODY  BUSSINESS.

OMG! I MISS MR JAMALI ALOT! HAHA.

THEN WE WALK AROUND TAMP MALL.

FIRST TO FOX(MR JAMALI'S FAMILY SHOP THERE.

THEN TO ISETAN

THEN TO G2000 THEN TO UNICLO.

ME AND FIFI CATCHING MOVIE, 'DEAR JOHN'(WITHOUT MR JAMALI LAH COZ HE GOT TUITION LATER.)

 MR JAMALI OFF TO NTUC TO BUY PATTY(?)

I THINK SO LAH, HE WAS SPEAKING SO FAST THAT IT EVEN SOUNDS LIKE A RAP . HAHA.

SALAM HIM THEN OFF TO WAYANG. AND DEAR JOHN IS QUITE A DISAPPOINTMENT .

MEETS WITH MR JAMALI IS ALWAYS INSPIRING AND MOTIVATING. 

THANKS FOR YOUR TIME.:)

LETS GO TO JB FOR MOVIE ONE DAY?

BATAM DAY TRIP FOR SHOPPING + PHOTOGRAPHY?OR ANY WHERE LAH. INFORM US WHEN YOU ARE FREE OK.:)

NOW, I CANT WAIT TO MEET THE REST ON 21ST! PLEASE MAKE IT EVERYONE.

THANKS FIFI FOR THAT SURPRISE. IT SERIOUSLY WAS.

THATS ABOUT ALL. 

LOVE SEMUA.

PS:21TH MARCH, PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME.

1620

2010-02-24T18:57:00.001+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

HELLO. FIFI ASK ME TO BLOG ABOUT YESTERDAY.

SOMETHING HAPPEN AND IT IS VERY THE FUNNY LAHH..

A BIRD SHIT ON ME.

FIFI IS OTP WITH AN INTERVIEWER AND SHE DELIBERATELY IGNORE THE INTERVIEWER. AND SHE EVEN TURN TO ME AND LAUGH.

SHE EVEN HANG UP THE FONE.

AND THEN WHEN THE INTERVIEWER CALL BACK, SHE SAY, BAD RECEPTION.

HAHA. NOTTY EHH FIFI. SAPER AJAR TIPU NI? Haha.

and just now, fifi pushed me. and i bang onto someone. very embarrassing lah... at interchange taw!!!

hahaha. dont wery fi.. im not blaming you.

thats about all.

goodbye.

syg semua! countdown, 24 more days to my birthday and 25 more days to chalet.

i miss him! alot.

2010-02-23T21:57:00.001+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

MUHAMMAD AZUAN BIN ARBAIN, I MISS YOU ALOT!

SOMETIMES I GUESS I JUST CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU?

ISIT TRUE ?

OR MY FEELINGS JUST TOYING AROUND WITH ME?

YOU MIGHT BE HUHUHAHA THERE, AND HERE I AM, HOPELESS.

IM DEVESTATED.

THOUGH ITS BEEN A YEAR LAH.

BUT, I CANT HIDE THIS FEELINGS.

I JUST CANT LOVE ANYONE , ANYMORE.

WHAT CHARM DID YOU USE ON ME?

WHY MUST I FEEL LIKE THIS?

HOW LONG SHOULD I WAIT?

I FEEL LIKE A PRISONER WHO WILL NOT BE DISMISS.

FOREVER.

WHY MUST I MEET YOU AT THE FIRST PLACE?

IF I KNOW LOVE WOULD HURT, I WOULDNT HAVE LOVED.

BUT, NEVERTHELESS I M GLAD THAT ATLEAST, YOU HAVE BEEN A PART OF ME.

AND YOU'VE ONCE LOVED ME.

AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW, THERE IS STILL YOU IN ME.

EVERY BREATH I TAKE, STILL BEATS YOUR NAME.

I KNOW THIS MAY SOUND EMOTIONAL. BUT, ONLY THROUGH MY BLOG, I LET IT OUT.

PS: I LOVE YOU.

he turns 20.

2010-02-20T14:48:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

MY DEAR FRIEND HERE TURNS TWENTY TODAY.
DAH TUA LAH YOU! HAHA. EXACTLY ONE MONTH, MY TURN!
HE IS MY PIECES BUDDY.
MY GOOD FRIEND.
MY PENAH-HAVE-FEELINGS-FOR.
MY CUTE FRIEND.
MY EVERYTHING LAH.
HAHA.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAY SYERZAN.
SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR, MURAH REZEKI.
MAY YOU GET YOUR MISS RIGHT SOON.
I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN LIFE,.:)
ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!

she say, i got s factor.

2010-02-19T15:25:00.002+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

Yah, seriously uh, as a true friend, i tell you this. "I wont be surprise if one day, you will get someone handsome and baik.
Because you got the S-FACTOR.:)" (Fifi told me this.)

:)

If only what fifi say is true, ill be the most happiest girl. Aniway, the handsome part, tak-perlu-uh.
Just the baik one, will do. If he is handsome , then, it will be a bonus for me lahh.
Fi, ucap ape kaw cakap tu, tiga kali please. So it will be a doa. haha.

Went out with fifi again.

SCHEDULE OF THE DAY.

1. IM LATE.(ALWAYS)
2. PASIR RIS , SURVEY CHALETS FOR THE BIG GATHERING FOR CSP.
3. OFF TO WHITE SAND, PRESANT FOR ALYA.
4. OFF TO TAMP MALL, PRESANT FOR ADLIN.
5. PRESANT FOR FIFI'S KAKAK SEDARE.
6. LONG JOHN SILVER.(GOLDEN DEAL 3 , WITH CHOCOLATE CREAM)
7. TERSEREMPAK AYU AND BOIFEY.(AYU, JANGAN HAVE THE WRONG THINKING TAU. THE CHARLES AND KEITH BAG, IS NOT MINE, OUR FRIENDS.)
8. A HANDSOME MATSALEH PROMOTER SMILED THE MINUTE I WALK INTO CENTURY SQ. HANDSOME GILER. HE PROMOTE A SCRUB. EFFECTIVE THOUGH. AND HE SAY, EHH, I LIKE YOUR STYLE.(KALAU DAPAT TU, SIMPAN DALAM SAFE BOX) HAHA.
9. CHILL AT STARBUCKS WHILE PLANNING FOR TODAY PLAN.. ALOT OF THINGS TO BE DONE.
10. SURVEY CAKE.
11. HOME SWEET HOME.

PLANS FOR TODAY.
1. MEET FIFI AT 12.30(MAKE SURE TAK LAMBAT EHH!)
2. COLLECT FIFI'S CERT.
3. SURVEY CAKE.
4. IDK WHERE.

PS; JANGAN LUPER BAWAK LAPPIE. WE NEED TO PRINT PICTURE FOR THE CAKE.

ERM, THATS ABOUT ALL.

GTG. FIFI'S WAITING.

ASSLAAMUALAIKUM SEMUA.
SAYANG SEMUE.

I Learn.

2010-02-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

The BIG thing.
The BIG birthday Celebration.
The BIG day.
The Big Gathering. 

THE BIG BIRTHDAY ! 20 YEARS OLD!
IM GROWING OLD. TIMES GOES BY SO FAST THAT I DINT REALISE WHAT WHEN WRONG.
IT GOES SO FAST THAT I MET ALOT OF GOOD AND BAD PEOPLE. 
SO MUCH GOOD MEMORIES. 
SO MUCH BAD MEMORIES.
SO MUCH NEW FRIENDS WHOM LEFT ME .

AND AS TIME PASS BY ONLY THEN I REALISE THAT I AM QUITE FORTUNATE I TERMS OF LIFE.
I LIVE A MODERATE LIFE WITH LOTS OF PEOPLE WHO LOVES ME.(MINUS OFF THOSE WHO LEFT ME LAHH)
I DO HAVE PROBLEMS HERE AND THERE . AND DO BELIEVE EVERY PROBLEM CAN BE SOLVED.(WITH DETERMINATION AND POSITIVE MINDSET.)
I ALSO REALISE THAT SOME THINGS OR SOMEONE THAT IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR, HAVE BEEN THERE THE WHOLE WHILE.
JUST LIKE FIFI AND AYU, I JUST REALISE , I DO HAVE GOOD FRIENDS WHO WILL BE THERE WHEN I NEED SOMEONE.
THEY HAVE BEEN THERE THE WHOLE WHILE. 
I LEARNED ALOT OF THINGS IN LIVE. 
I LEARN HOW TO THINK POSITIVE.
I LEARN TO IGNORE PROBLEMS IN WHICH ITS NOT WORTH THINKING OF.( BENDE TAK PERLU JANGAN FIKIR.)
I LEARN HOW TO APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE.
I LEARN TO BE A BETTER LOVER.(LOL)
I LERAN TO FORGIVE..

BUT SO FAR, IVE NEVER LEARN TO FORGET.! 
 

i hope.

2010-02-16T15:19:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

SYAFIFI AND AYU , I MISS YOU!
FOUR DAYS FELT SO LONG.
I HOPE YOU ARE DOING GOOD.
FI, I HOPE YOU HAD FUN IN BATAM.
AYU, I HOPE YOU HAD FUN WITH BOIFEY ON VALENTINES DAY.
I HOPE YOU MISS ME TOO(LOL)
I HOPE WE WILL MEET SOON.
I HOPE YOU DONT FEEL DOWN LIKE ALWAYS.
I HOPE YOU DONT FEEL ISOLATED BY YOUR FRIENDS.
I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU WHEN THE WHOLE WORLD , TURNS YOU AWAY.
I HOPE THIS FRIENDSHIP WILL LAST.

.... I HOPE.

WHY DO GOOD THINGS ALWAYS END?
MY FRIENDS DESERTED ME. && I DONT BLAME ANYONE.
I BELIEVE THEY HAVE THEIR OWN COMMITMENT AND THEIR OW PROBLEM.

I KNOW. I UNDERSTAND.

my friends.

2010-02-14T22:36:00.001+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

HOW I WISH, MY FRIENDS , REUNITE.
THE FFT I MEAN..
WE ARE DRIFTED SO FAR. EVERYONE IS WITH THEIR OWN LIFE. I MISS THEM. ALOT.

SORRY MAMD AND FID, I DONT HAVE YOUR PICHAS..

BUT, U GUYS MUST KNOW, I LOVE YOU GUYS LIKE I ALWAYS DID. I WANT ALL OF US TO REUNITE. I WANT MY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH ALL OF U..

I WANT ALL OF US BACK. PUT ALL THE PAST BEHIND.. PLEASE..

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!!!

PS: I LOVE YOU.

MATREPS HERE AND THERE.

2010-02-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

HELLO.

HERE I AM AT NEKCHU'S HOUSE, YISHUN

AND THIS PLACE SERIOUSLY REMINDS ME OF AZUAN(AGAIN)-_-

THE TIME WE LEPAK AT TANGGE ARD 2 AM.

AND ALL THOSE STUFFS LAH. I MISS HIM ALOT.

ANIWAY, I FETCHED ADEK AT YISHUN MRT AND SAW THIS MATREO WHO WEARS SHADE AT ARD 7 PM? MATAHARI ATAS KEPALE EHH? AND HIS ACTION, FUHH!! SO A TYPICAL MATREP YANG BARU NAEK. HAHA.

LATER, I SAW ONE MORE MATREP, SMOKING AND HE ALMOST FLY! HAHA.MAYBE KETIAK MELECET. BUKAK KEPAK! CB! TAK PERLU SIA. MUKA UNDERAGE.AND LOOK AT ME , AND CAMPAK ROKOK! TAK PERLU K BOY!

CB! PISS ME OFF SIAK!

OKAYH LAH. I GTG. HAVING BBQ. NEKCHU BIRTHDAY.

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEKCHU!

i want my mr right.

2010-02-11T22:02:00.001+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

Hello all. today, went out with fifi and ayu. And i am so very emotional today. with all those jiwang songs by the beach.... omg! very the emo. I am not being myself..

Especially the song, sanggupkah kau bersabar . omg! they see me smiling, but deep inside, im crying like hell!

THAT SONG SERIOUSLY REMIND ME OF AZUAN! i ask him to listen to that song. and the next day, he play that song while we are otp. it seriously relates to us. we have to be patient in order to overcome every obstacles.

I MISS HIM. alot! i am so emotional today. ive been thinking too much about Mr Right lately.
When will i get my mr right? I am NOT exactly desperate lah.. but, u see, im twenty and have never felt loved before. except from azuan lahh... and itu pon, i have to overcome alot of obstacles. with his commitment toward work, and barely have time for me.

People say , first love is hard to let go. But for me, it does seems to be a problem. I admit, Azuan is not my first love, but , by far, he made the greatest impact on my life. i cant seems to love anyone else after him. Its just that , ive always been with the wrong guy. I am almost at the point of giving up. its not that im desperate or something, i just need a someone to love me , for who i am . not what he want me to do.

But as i think back on what happen in the past, i am not ready to overcome all those relationship obstacles. All the , where-is-my-bf, why-he-havent-call-me-yet,is-he cheating-on-me,is-he-okay,he-had-his-meal and etc... i am sick and tired of all those. But at The same time, i want to feel being loved. I am at confused state.

I seriously miss all those moment whereby he call me and ask, hows my day, had my meals,where am i now and all those shits lah..

GUYS ARE SO GOOD AT TALKING, WHEN IT COMES TO PROVING IT, THEY SUCK.

I wondered why those girls who got the good guy, and she betrayed him. and its the other way round for me. and it suck lah. hais.

i am waiting for my mr right, patiently.

NOW, STOP SHITTING AND START SEARCHINH FOR A JOB! I MEAN CAREER! HAHA.

OK, I FEEL RELIEVED NOW.. PHEWWW!!

ANW, HAD A GREAT TIME WITH MY LOVED ONES, JUST NOW. I LOVE YOU GIRLS ALOT!!

PS:I MISS YOU.

aku bisa kok!!

2010-02-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

♥ ; I SAY.

HELLO.

DAH LAME TAK BLOG KAN?? HAHA. AFTER CSP, I TEND TO MEET FIF I MORE. AND I LOVE IT.
THE BOND'S GETTING STRONGER. :) SHE KNOW THAT I LOVE HER DESPITES ALL THE SILENCE WE HAD IN THE PAST. THANKS TO CSP, IT MADE OUR FRIENSHIP, STRONGER THAN EVER. THANKS. CSP STARTS OFF MY YEAR WELL. EVERYTHING IS GOING SMOOTHLY, ALHAMDULLILLAH.. PLUS I FOUND MY TRUE FRIEND WHO HAVE BEEN THERE ALL THOSE WHILE. I M JUST BLINDED BY EDUCATION. BOTH OF US WERE BUSY BACK THEN. WITH OUR OWN LIFE.. SCHOOLS. NOW, WE ARE BACK. STRIVING FOR THE BEST FOR BOTH. GO OUR ALL IN JOB SEEKING.-_- LOL. SUSAH TAU NAK DAPAT KERJE. BUT, 'I CAN'.

AFTER CSP, I VE BEEN THINKING POSITIVELY. BARELY ANY NEGETIVE THOUGHTS.:)
I ALWAYS REMEMBER MR JAMALI SAY, "TIGA KALI UCAP, MAKA , IA JADI DOA. AND I SO BELIEVE IN IT.

WHAT I DO REFLECTS ON WHAT I SAY AT THE BACK OF MY MIND.. SO, NOWADAYS, WHEN FIFI THINKS NEGATIVELY, ILL REMIND HER THIS" BENDE TAK PENTING, JANGAN FIKIR. TIGA KALI UCAP JADI DOA. JUST SAY,'YOU CAN'. HAHA. DAH JADI COUNSELLER TAU. HAHA. SO, WHENEVER YOU ARE AT THE POINT OF GIVING UP, JUST SAY 'I KNOW, I CAN' AND HOPEFULLY U SUCCEED.:)

LOVE SEMUA.:)

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!