♥ SHE CONFESS..♥


Dear all! Lets update what hapen otf with him yesterday. We talked. Lyk we used to. Suddenly i ask hym a favour. I ask him to view my blog usin hys hp to c if tag box are visible on hys hp cause its not, on mine. & he read e posts which had hys name on some posts. Im ok wit it. He became perfectly nice to me just lyk our past 2 yrs 5 mths 8 days relationshp. Glad. Im even treated so wel. I get to make decisions. Lyk wat tym shud we put down e fon, what shud he do aftputtin down, what tym he shud kol bck etc. I dint get to mke decisi0ns in e past, he decides for me. Blablabla, He col & we talk ; again. Misunderstanding; always. Its always a prob for us. Maeb he cn never understand me or i cn never understand him. One way or another, i dont wish to noe. I do love hym as strong as i did in e past. I do want hym to be mine;again&always. Let fate decides. Its all written. If allah wants hym to be my life partner, he wil be. Allah decides. We as human, we acknowledge. So ya be it. I want hym to noe i do love hym & wil always do. Aft e misundrstandin, a total silence frm hym. I ask y, he say ntg. We put e fon down aft he ask me to slip. I tot evrytin gona be okay, bt im wrng. Beepbeep. Msg frm hym. Which says:


Hym:Kadang2 i bingit ngan u. I want to be happy wit u juz now n bring back e atmosphere the time we together but...u see wat happen, kerana miscommunication, we tried to win our rite... My heart bled right aft1er u said i permainkan u while we in relationship till i silence myself. Haiz... Dont have to reply... FULLSTOP for wat happen earlier...


me: I mintk maaf law ape i ckp tdi menyakitkn ati u. Maaf law i slh. I pn tknk ckp sape slh ke sape btl. Biar kte tk tawu k. Law j0d0h, tetap jodoh wan. Lets put everytin to fate. Im sory.


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Me:Wan, sblm i td0, i nk mintk maaf lagy skali. U sndire ckp slh fhm, tapi u sedih. Angp je lah ni smue slh fhm. Dont take anytin to hart. Bobal ctu, abez ctu k. Dala, tkmu sedih2 k. Tk gune. K wan. Da2, smile..


Hym: i cnt smile..


Me: Tkmu gni la wan. Lupekn je. I mintk maaf k. Kla, i slh. Maafkn i. Boleh ?


hym: Titisan air mata maseh mengalir...u tak perlu mintak maaf kay...


me: What cn i do in return of breakin ur heart? Pls tel me.


hym: Tak perlu kay..u tk tk bersalah..maybe i too emotional...


me: Sori wan. I mintk maaf! Pls maafkn i. Pls. Pls.


hym:U tk bersalah...it half past 1...gi sleep kay...


me: i wont be able to slip lyk diz. Nvm. Go to slip dhen. Gdnyt.


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& i swear i cnt slip. Guilty's takin charge. I fall asleep at 7 & woke up at 9. 2 hours of rest. & end up lyk zombie. + diz menstrual cramp, shit! Its such a pain. Feel lyk collapsing soon. 2 mre days to end this sickenin work!Endure gerl! Dhats all! In case he's reading: im so sorry. Ily. Pls kol me. We nid to talk tings out. Dhats pretty much. Gegerl's out!
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