Kalau dah jodoh, tak kemana.
Thursday, October 7, 2010 | 6:40 PM | 0 comments
Dear heart,I am sorry, you got hurt, again.
I thought he is the one.
Well, he is not, after all.
Dear awak,
Why must all this happen to us, over and over and over again.
I thought our love is strong enough to hold on.
You prove me wrong.
You are just, the same.
You say," No matter what happen, i tanak you salah kan diri you, for whatever that happens between us. I still love you and i need you . Lets just go on time-off(fcuk, this is the 7487491648148607380 times we went on time off) We can still text, call, and meet-ups. I still want to get updated on your wellbeings."
WAAAIIITTTT! Did he just say meet up? Ok, now you tell me, how the hell am i going to face him? Maybe otp, i can somehow cover my "tak-kene-gaya-ness"
but, in real life? What am i suppose to call him? SAYANG? B? AWAK? BABY? OR, WORST, SUFRI? How am i gonna act like a "friend" ?
No more holding hands, no more goodbye kiss, no more gurau-ing, no more............................. fml like seriously.
fuckfuckfuck.
I changed his contact name from "babylove" to "oh-my-god" because i will have that omg feeling each and everytime his name appear on my screen.
I promised him to treat him out on a dinner date, on my payday. And being a girl of my words, i will still fullfill it despite us being only EX-PARTNERS!(eeeexxxxxxxxxxxxxx)):
How am i suppose to react ? HOW ?
I wont be able to hide these awkwardness even behind a mask, you bet.
We use to randomly say "b, i love you" or "awak, saya sayang awaak tau"
and now, nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnoooooooooooooooooooooooooo more!
We wont even have anything to talk about when he calls, eventhough, there is so much things that i want him to know. Too much that only tears can explain.
fml.
SEPTEMBER SOMEHOW SUCK.
&
Dear Syai, i feel you.
Lets endure all this dugaan dari illahi.
I hope the very best for you, dear ex.
(wait, the one above, is not refering to him.)
(This ex of mine, going through the same break up shits as me.)
Take care, kawan.
